In my first blog post I expressed my desire to spend more time dawdling, taking time to play and pay attention to the little joys of life. Three or four days after that post I discovered (completely unexpectedly) that I required major back surgery. This surgery would require me to be out of work for approximately 6 weeks. Not exactly the way I expected to integrate more dawdling time into my life, but now it is prescribed and enforced!
To be honest, between preparing myself, my family, my house and my work for this surgery, I haven’t had any time to dawdle at all – though I did manage to finish two paintings! This will truly be an Inter-Mission in my life. A time to rest and heal, but also a time to focus on this new mission. As I lay here in bed I am taking great joy in the faith my kitty Elf has in me to curl up between my legs. I notice the sunlight sparkling on the leaves of the trees outside my window like it does on water. When I step outside with my walker I am moving slowly enough that dragonflies land on me and I admire their amazing bodies and wings. So many colors and shapes of dragonflies, of flowers, of trees and cats and sticks and stones and humans. Every single grain of sand, every creation is as individual as a snowflake. The enormity of it all is astounding! As is what is going on inside of me right now. At this moment cells are multiplying and spreading in order to fuse some screws and rods and a section of my spine together. My physical world has shrunk to not much more than the bed in my living room and there is pain, but I embrace this time spent with the enormity of life and a wide open heart.